Just came back from dinner with my family - to celebrate my bro n my bday.

Will upload the picts when i've the time n the energy. Am seriously TIRED now.

Oh but after we reached home, my bro suddenly came into my room and gave me S$50 Robinsons voucher! Yes you can imagine how shocked I was. He says it's a gift from his gf & me. Hmm... He has never exactly given me anything on his own accord except for "special" dates like my 21st bday, so this was totally unexpected. But after the surprise wore off, the 1st thing tt came to my mind was, "why Robinsons?" That place kinda gives me an "oldish" feel. Hmm....

Anyway, someone just told me something that is totally crap to me. Sometimes, I really feel that I'm wasting my time and money on such people. *argh*

God I need more compassion. Sigh.

God is the strength of my heart and my Portion FOREVER.

Let everything that I do, be unto the Lord. So that when such people surface in my life, may I still have the compassion for them. Yet at the same time recognise who I should sow into that will bear good fruits that will remain.

Oh no! I have yet to pack for my Thurs early morning trip to BALI. *sheesh* Anyone can tell me in quick time what do I need to bring and how much of USD & IDR should I change? :/

yes.

i just sent out my 1st one.

a GOOD start.

amen.

*woohoo*

i'm vv happy to ve met you this aftn. it's been so long.

really. so much for "see how ba..." Hehe...

sometimes God works in amazing & mysterious ways.

and so i'll keep on praying. i choose to believe.

my keyboard spoilt yesterday! it's less than a yr old!

just when i was about to pop the question to invite my frds for svc. talk abt timing sia...

yesterday the Queen so nicely msn me to ask how are things with me. my posts are really so negative mah? hee...

well, i would say my life can afford to be better than now. much better in fact. and so yesterday during lunch i took time out for some soul time and reading of the Word.

last week during the Fri morn PM, i asked for a Word for something. and this was where God brought me to:

Isa 54
A Perpetual Covenant of Peace (NKJV)
1 “Sing, O barren,
You who have not borne!
Break forth into singing, and cry aloud,
You who have not labored with child!
For more are the children of the desolate
Than the children of the married woman,” says the LORD.
2 “ Enlarge the place of your tent,
And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings;
Do not spare;
Lengthen your cords,
And strengthen your stakes.
3 For you shall expand to the right and to the left,
And your descendants will inherit the nations,
And make the desolate cities inhabited.
4 “ Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed;
Neither be disgraced, for you will not be put to shame;
For you will forget the shame of your youth,
And will not remember the reproach of your widowhood anymore.
5 For your Maker is your husband,
The LORD of hosts is His name;
And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel;
He is called the God of the whole earth.
6 For the LORD has called you
Like a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit,
Like a youthful wife when you were refused,”
Says your God.

Spread Out! Think Big! (The Message)
1-6 "Sing, barren woman, who has never had a baby.
Fill the air with song, you who've never experienced childbirth!
You're ending up with far more children
than all those childbearing women."
God says so!"Clear lots of ground for your tents!
Make your tents large.
Spread out! Think big!
Use plenty of rope,
drive the tent pegs deep.You're going to need lots of elbow room
for your growing family.You're going to take over whole nations;
you're going to resettle abandoned cities.
Don't be afraid—you're not going to be embarrassed.
Don't hold back—you're not going to come up short.
You'll forget all about the humiliations of your youth,
and the indignities of being a widow will fade from memory.
For your Maker is your bridegroom,
his name, God-of-the-Angel-Armies!
Your Redeemer is The Holy of Israel,
known as God of the whole earth.
You were like an abandoned wife, devastated with grief,
and God welcomed you back,Like a woman married young
and then left," says your God.

and so right now i will SHOUT OUT:

SPREAD OUT! THINK BIG!

initially i wanted to really blog. you know, like update stuff n upload some photos.

but i ended talking to someone. found out somethings and plus those stuff that i already knew, i cried (yet again).

it's nt about healing or getting over it. somethings u can never get over. especially when it concerns eternity.

how i miss those times in the past. but well. things have changed.

God i pray...

So many things tt i wanna say.

But i'm really tired.

Till the time when i can muster enuff of strength to focus on the comp...

May you have had a better day than me.