Wednesday, December 19, 2007

The *REAL* me?

Inspired by what dear Cin put on her blog, I went to give it a try myself:

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The Real You
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.


Kinda timely considering what I blogged about not so long ago... As for whether their description of me is the REAL me?

That's for me to know, and You to find out! =)

Monday, December 17, 2007


1 colleague resigned, 1 colleague on long leave and another 1 on MC for 1 week...

I'm supposed to cover them all.


This is madness......

Why is it that everywhere I go, I seem to attract lots of work to myself... =(


Sunday, December 16, 2007

Will the REAL me please stand up

Before I actually go about writing about Charity Day, I just thought I would blog on this instead. Just some observations and thoughts on this...

Well the other time in my Mini DHS Gathering post I mentioned about how the real me was someone that kept quiet listening to the conversations of my friends who tried to help LQ with getting married. Plus what I heard and experienced today, it made me think further about being real.

Which is the real me actually? The one who's the life of the party talking and joking loudly or the quiet girl blending in nicely with the background.

Though a large part of me seems to agree with the latter, but I dun think I'm being a fake when I'm the life of the party. I guess it's just a different side of me which comes out as and when it is necessary. Though if given the choice, I seriously do NOT mind being the person who just listens.

But I soooooo agree with what Pst says, that if we wanna soar like eagles then we need to stop hanging around turkeys. There have been countless people that I've seen with such great potentials but some how when they hang out with people so-called their good friends, they become someone almost unrecognisable. A compulsion to fit in? Perhaps. But if I need to change to a different person just to fit in with my good friends, then are these people really my good friends? And if that is the real me instead, does that mean the person that seemingly has potential is not the real me? I'm using the 1st person sentence structure not because that's happening to me, but I guess this will seem less threatening just in case the person I'm referring to happens to chance upon this post. =)

To me, good friends are NOT good friends to me if there are so many things that I dare not say to them. If there is no open communication, such ones are not my good friends. Not that I need to share EVERYTHING but I share cos I trust the person. Else, I'm sorry but you are not my good friend. I'm just not the type to segregate my life. If you dun trust me, then dun bother sharing cos I won't be interested as well.

I guess it's inevitable that we live our lives with different facades. BUT I thought being a christian unmasks a person so that we become real. What is being real?

Quiet vs Loud (it's still real)

But mannerisms to me if they change, then one of it is not real. If one moment you're edifying, saying and doing all the right things but once the group of people around you changes and you turn into an uncouth, inconsiderate and timid person something is wrong in this picture. The real you is the not-so-nice person I'm afraid...

So the moral of the story is, if you wanna soar in the sky then hang around people who wants to fly as well!

Stay away from those that hold you back, talk bad about others (esp their OWN leaders), enjoy having their own pity-party, dwell on the negative all the time, talking about how glorious their PAST was.

Come on, get over it! IF you truly wanna move on, then move. Stop commenting on others that wanna move on and despise their small beginnings.

Somehow I think I digressed along the way but that's just how I feel about friends.

There. Hee... =)

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Sneaks to Charity Day

Here's a NICE photo for you as a sneak preview to Charity Day...

I'll write about it as soon as I gather more photos on what happened yesterday! =)

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Feeling sleepy after a heavy lunch and much running around taking photos...

Took photos with Felicia Chin, Fiona Xie and Adrian Pang! But... most of the photos are NOT in my hp but with my friend, so you all will need to wait before seeing them... =)

For now...

I'm falling asleep from a HEAVY lunch...




The much talked-about-long-awaited day is finally here!

Will upload the photos and update the happenings leta! =)

Monday, December 10, 2007

Mini DHSSB 1996 Gathering

I went for a mini DHSSB 1996 gathering on Sunday.

Firstly I wanna apologise to LM for being late... *Sorry my dear*

She so kindly offered to send me there yet I was late, and my dear friend actually went all the way home and then came out again to send me there! * So touched*

We were like 30mins late, and to our joy there were already people there when we reached! =)

YH and her husband Khet (who had grown to be like a part of us...), KJ and JT were already there. Our KJ as usual looks so much like a small little boyboy... But mai siao siao k. He's a Financial Planner, a Housing Agent, Assistant Manager of a flower shop and a Managing Director of his OWN company. He told us he sleeps like 4hrs a day, managing his US inventory-based company and watch his stocks while US works... Truly I'm so amazed... He's non like the person we knew back then. In our batch, only like 6-7 out of 500 whose results could not make it JC and his results were kinda close to those 6-7 people. And now look at him. How people change, thank God for the better.

Others slowly streamed in... People like ZK (a rare guest!), and of course the usual GH, LQ and Ryan (her BF). I was thinking, what a good representation: 3 from woodwinds, 3 from brass and 1 percussion. hehehe... I truly wonder how would it be like to have an official major gathering, even if it's just for my batch. I heard people like LJ already has a baby boy! I believe she's the 1st to be a mum... =)

After the usual catch-ups, we adjourned to another place in Siglap - The Coffee Club. And then I realised that out of 8 of us, 7 drove. No prizes for guessing who didn't.


It's like all of a sudden, thoughts like what am I actually doing with my life came gushing to me once again... All my peers are successful people... Let's see, we have 2 signed-on navy crew, a teacher, an entrepreneur, an audit supervisor, a banker, a doctor, 2 pharmaceutical engineers and me... I'm just a small little accountant struggling to make some decent savings... :'(


What am I doing with my life?

Can anyone help me answer this question...


I guess the only comfort I have is that I dun need to go through what our dear LQ has to. Seriously we all do not really like her BF but after listening to what he has gone through, I kinda pity him. They are our modern version of R&J. While the rest all had so many things to say on how to encourage them and get her mum to allow them to get married, I somehow just remained quiet. Once again, the real me surfaces in front of all the "I" people.

But I really wanna wish LQ all the best. It's not going to be an easy life for her from now till a long long time from now... And she's such a sweet gal...

God I pray that You'll be there with her whenever she has to go through all these...

Oh I do miss hanging out with them. People who have known me half my life. More than half actually. Been through so many things since those times. It's great to have such gatherings. =)

Thanks to GH for always being such a sport to organise such gatherings! =)


After such a gathering, many things going through my head actually.

But back to the question of what am I doing with my life... I think this is something that I'll be thinking about till 2007 ends. Something that I will no doubt be praying about at least till then as well...

God I commit my life into Your hands. I know You will never short-change me no matter how reality may seem to be now... :'(


I'm feeling so tired once again... What's with sundays and mondays? =(

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Once again...

I'm feeling so tired once again...

Is it a lack of sleep? Or is it like Prov 13:12... "Hope deferred makes the heart sick..."

God when will my breakthru come?

I need a Word, I need a God moment...

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Unique fellowship group with Pst (Updated)

All thanks to W, I got the chance to fellowship with Pst yesterday night after ZM. He had to do this just because I bao dou what happened to him on monday to GY lo...

Gerry, GY says that we can post the *ahem* of *ahem* on Youtube eh! He even has a name for it: From Coast to Toast.... haahahaaaaa......

I was initially not quite sure that I could make it in time for ZM. But after losing focus and concentration on my work at 8plus, I decided to be 萧洒 and just leave to go for ZM. =)

And from my office to YMCA is so near... So I reached there only at 9plus while the rest of the leaders were still in the midst of praying. For the FIRST time, GY subzone had full attendance yesterday! WOW!!! =)

Anyway, everything went as per normal until just before we were about to leave. Pst suddenly walked by to talk to us and asked if we were going to have supper with him. W enthusiastically nodded while I told Pst that I don't think I will join him this time round. Then Pst said, "So Sab is not keen to fellowship with me, then nevermind la..." Wa.... So sad eh... And so I decided to go together with him, since he put it this way... I'm always willing one ok, just that yesterday was kinda tired after all the fire fighting at work BUT nevertheless I still went! =)

The funny thing was, it turned out that the crowd yesterday was exceptionally small...

There were only like 7 of us Including Pst himself. And except for him, all the rest of us stay in the west! I believe this is a 1st time that such a group came about... So as usual it was a great time of fellowship since it was such a small group. It's always amazing to spend time with Pst, to hear from him many things that he doesn't usually share when all of us gather and to talk about non-official things...

I shall cut away all the unnecessary details and hence by the time I reached home, it was already like 1plus am... So much for wanting to go home early... I kinda overslept this morning cos I just couldn't bring myself to get up...

I think, I need to cut down on my night life from now on.... Of course UNLESS it's an invitation from Pst... heheee..... =)

Will you be my 77th reader?

Hey... If you are, tag me ok? =)

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

I discovered...

Attended ZP and Fyfy's wedding last night... It was a rather nice place, cool and Al Fresco kind of tentage. But not a very conducive place for a matrimony actually. Many people had small talk while Pst was preaching and since there was no live-video streaming, kinda hard to focus on the whole process.

Ok I confess, I for one were those distracted... Cos I was seriously very very hungry... =(

I walked from my office to that place and it took me about 30 mins! Walked from Raffles MRT to Boat Quay, to Riverwalk, to MICA to Funan to Fire Station and then up the hill pass Bible House and the many other buildings too dark to even notice what they are...

So we did something really dumb actually, we requested for peanuts in the midst of the matrimony... *sorry Pst, ZP and Fyfy*

SM Goh and his wife came to grace the event also! How cool can that be!!! =) But we didn't manage to take a photo with him, only stood there and waved at him in a rather silly manner cos he was leaving while the whole group of us were trying to take a photo (without the couple)... Guess we really dunno how to behave in front of important government ministers...

But well, the rest of the night was fun though the food was so-so only... With me and Gerry around, how can it not be fun???!!!! Right *wil*? Hahahaa... One day, maybe just one day we'll let you in part of our gals talk k? hehehee....

Not forgetting Alexis our "Tomb Raider", so appropriately dressed for the occasion while we climbed up the hill passed things which sure do resemble tombs... ehehe...

I haven't uploaded the few photos that we took together yet. Perhaps Gerry will have the honor of doing so? =) Not forgetting our prized video of *ahem*... =)

Ok, I better get back to work now. My in tray is once again reaching it's telephone directory kind of height... *sob sob*

Monday, December 3, 2007

Why am I always so tired on monday... =(