Monday, February 28, 2011


Can we no longer stay in the theme park? Other than the fact that there are many many more rides in there other than the rollercoaster, the crux of the matter is, that life is not all about staying in theme parks.

The many journeys that you have ahead of you, are all awaiting for you outside there.

So please. Move out of the theme park. Get off the rollercoaster.

Random Lyrics

“分得够狠   你才有借口钻身”

“如果要走   请你记得我。  如果难过   请你忘了我。”

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Many times, I feel more concern and love from non-believers than our fellow brothers and sisters. Something that I have always wanted to find out why. Even I cannot explain why.

But one thing I can understand, and that is why many choose to turn to the "outside" and not their "family". It's time for us to do something about it.

We have what they are looking for, what the world doesn't have. Just that often we misrepresent Him. Let Him shine through, and hide our ugly character away, would you?

Friday, February 25, 2011

The flood of memories

Memories of the heart

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

The "new" generation of the Older generation

Nowadays I seemed to have "lost" to the "older" generation in terms of certain things. Mentalities and even phrases of speech. Below are real life examples that I have encountered (so far):

1) The using of WTH
Eg. The doc anyhow say one, say my bones degenerating. WTH man he!
[I'm still revving to come to terms with this. Because even I myself have not used this in my speech before...]

2) Not married but stays with the significant other at the age of 50++
[Wide-eyed amazed that the older-older generation can accept that...]

3) Having more types and quantity of face masks in the fridge than me.

I guess as time goes by, the list will get longer as I start to ponder once again. Have I "aged" before my time?

Saturday, February 19, 2011

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好


hai shi yuan lai na ge wo
bu guo liao diao ji gong shen lei suo yi bian shou
dui zhe jing zi wo cheng nuo
chi zao wo hui hai zhe zhang lian yi tui xiang rong
不算什么 爱错就爱错
bu xuan shen me ai cuo jiu ai cuo
早点认错 早一点解脱
zao dian ren cuo zao yi dian jie duo

wo ji mo ji mo jiu hao
这时候谁都别来安慰 拥抱
zhe shi hou shei dou bie lai an wei yong bao
jiu rang wo yi ge ren qu tong dao
受不了想到 快疯掉 死不了就还好
shou bu liao xiang dao kuai feng diao si bu liao jiu hai hao
wo ji mo ji mo jiu hao
ni zhen de bu yong lai wo hui yi li wei xiao
wo jiu bu xiang xing wo hui ben dao
忘不了赖着 不放掉
wang bu liao lai zhe bu fang diao
人本来就寂寞的 借来的都该还掉
ren ben lai jiu ji mo de jie lai de dou gai huan diao

我总会把你戒掉 Oh WU Oh
wo zhong hui ba ni jie diao oh wu oh

hai shi yuan lai na ge ni
shi wo zi ji zuo meng ni you gai bian shen me
zai duo de ai ye mei yong
mei ge ren yao mei ge ren de nie zhang yin guo
会有什么 什么都没有
hui you shen me shen me dou mei you
早点看破 才看得见以后 OH
zao dian kan po cai kan de jian yi hou OH

wo ji mo ji mo jiu hao
zhe shi hou shei dou bie lai an wei yong bao
jiu rang wo yi ge ren qu tong dao
受不了想到快疯掉 死不了就还好
shou bu liao xiang dao kuai feng diao si bu liao jiu hai hao
wo ji mo ji mo jiu hao
ni zhen de bu yong lai wo hui yi li wei xiao
wo jiu bu xiang xing wo hui ben dao
忘不了赖着 不放掉
wang bu liao lai zhe bu fang diao
人本来就寂寞的 我总会把你戒掉
ren ben lai jiu ji mo de wo zhong hui ba ni jie diao

Friday, February 18, 2011

小虎 不只是朋友

Heard this the other day on tv, an old song that I grew up listening to...






Tuesday, February 15, 2011

The degradation of values in our world today (quoted from an advert on the mrt):
"Commitment is for those without options"

12 Feb 2011

A day of insignificance to many. After all, what is it in comparison to today, 14 Feb 2011?

But that infortunately marks the date that I would never see the following words in the same light again: drop dead, Roland restaurant.

What started off as a call to locate someone that is kinda related to us but not seen and only heard of for more than 20 years turned out to be an event that would change things forever.

From frantic search to relief that she is found (so that the trip to the hospital would not be necessary), to unbelief and then denial, and finally to reality sinking in at the hospital eventually. All these happened within a span of less than 4 hours. The night marked the 3rd or perhaps 4th time we all saw our cousin; in all her 18years of age.

Would the departure bring about a reconciliation? Or would things stay the same, just with one less person around during gatherings and whose absence is felt much more? The hearty laughter, the choir / chinese orchestral stories have unexpectedly ceased prematurely on this 10th day of the lunar new year.

Someone that would be dearly missed and always remembered - Uncle Victor

The last (almost) full family photo

Sunday, February 13, 2011

The fragility of life. Who would have thought. Sigh.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Have a Little Faith by Mitch Albom

"Faith is about doing. You are how you act, not just how you believe."

"When you come to the end, that's where God begins."

"It is far more comforting to think God listened and said no, than to think that nobody's out there."

"Because the word 'commitment' has lost its meaning. I'm old enough to remember when it used to be positive. A committed person was someone to be admired. He wad loyal and steady. Now a commitment was something you avoid. You don't want to tie yourself down. It's the same with faith, by the way. We don't want to get stuck having to go services all the time, or having to follow all the rules. We don't want to commit to God. We'll take Him when we need Him, or when things are going good. But real commitment? That requires staying power - in faih and in marriage."

"Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love and a peaceful heart."

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

I would very much like to

I finally went for my FIRST jog of 2011 today. Long overdue but well....

Just a thought that crossed my mind seeing all the kids ending school in the evening and the parents picking them up: I would very much like to do that for my kid next time.

My parent have never picked me up after school before. Not in pre-school, kindergarden, primary school nor the others. My dearest nanny picked my up from pre-school and kindergarden. The school bus picked me up in lower primary. I went home myself from upper primary onwards.

Seeing how the parents / grandparents / maid picked the kids up just now, I was kinda envious of them. No one used to carry my bag for me, no one except me and occassionally the maid we used to have.

I wanna grow up together with my children next time. To see them through the different stages in life. The many times I told myself, the many statements that were said to me, "I will never ever say that to my children next time." To not treat them as a money plant.

From Have a Little Faith (paraphrased):
Do you think that your parents are perfect, or do they need improvement? They are not perfect since no one is, but neither do they need improvement.

What do you think?

Beyond comprehension

So many months have passed but yet it's still a raw spot... When oh when... =/

Wednesday, February 2, 2011


As I was playing with my new toy these few days, I realised that our life is very much like a "role-playing" game. You know how some games put you through certain scenarios or story lines and then let you choose the responses and then wire the other characters and next few scenes according to the response? I feel that life in essence is the same thing.

We live through life going through various "situations", we choose the various "responses" and then people around us will respons accordingly to whatever we say and do. And things happen according to our responses as well. According to our responses, people form a mental picture of us - so either their impression gets better (+ve points in the game) or worse (-ve points in the game).

And we know the aim of the game, let's say to get through to "High School" with good grades (romance is a plus if we can impress the right character) or to solve a "Murder Mystery". So accordingly, we choose hoping that it is the right response which will lead us to the "right" ending.

The only difference? The game that I play gives me a score at the end of each "chapter" so that I know where I stand and whether I am still "in the league" of attaining the desired ending. But life doesn't. The game allows me to "replay" my "chapter" should I feel that I did not perform as well as I should, giving me the hindsight that my earlier responses were not so correct for some of the scenarios. But life doesn't.

However. We all do have something that helps us in this little "game" that we play, called life. And that is my little black book and The Gentleman.

I need to learn to lean on them more daily. So that even though there are no "replays" in this "game" we play, I know I will still "play" it the right way - with their help.