I usually say the same 3 words every night before I sleep.

Last night was no different.

"Good night God!" =)

And in the mornings, I say the same 4 words everyday...

"I love You God!" =)

But this morning when I said that, I felt that God replied with the words, "Then feed my sheep".

And the passage that I once blogged about came into my mind. The part where Jesus came to Peter and asked him if he loves Him after He resurrected and he denied Him 3 times. And with Peter's every answer, Jesus' reply was "Feed my sheep" or "Tend my sheep".

So clear... when God speaks...

God's Visitation

I had a God moment last night.

It just happened suddenly while talking to my member on MSN and listening to the song on my blog. It's like all of a sudden, God walked into my room...

His presence was so strong that many times I felt like crying even while I was chatting.

Oh how I love such moments. It wasn't really the "best" conditions when He appeared. My tv was on, I was playing Facebook, logged onto my oh-so-forgotten Friendster and generally just chatting. But when He stepped in, suddenly it's like my whole world just slowed down. And so I slowly started to close off the distracting things as He drew close. I switched off the tv, closed all my programmes one by one, just leaving my blog page on cos the song was still playing.

And at that moment, I had an encounter with God.

I closed my eyes are started to fellowship with the One that I love so dearly. When I opened my eyes again, I realised that time just flew by. Though I slept at close to 2am, I was up again this morning just to chat with Him once more. And strangely, I don't feel tired though I slept like only 4hrs.

I love such God moments. =)

Dying to Self and for my Dream

I struggled with sleeping last night cos I was still very bothered with what happened... So much so that I tried to sleep at 11pm but ended up still wide awake at 12.20am. I couldn't take it anymore so I decided at that time to get up and pray. After lifting it to God, I finally manged to fall asleep soon after...

I set my alarm to wake up at 5am to pray. Actually I did it on Wed morning too, but my weak attempt to pray only lasted for like 10mins before I fell asleep again. But this morning I was wide awake. Though my sleep was a peaceful one after praying the night before, those thoughts came back to me again once I woke up. I mumbled my prayer to God once again. I told God that I want to let go of those thoughts and the feelings that are attached to it.

Not sensing a breakthru in my spirit, I decided to take up my guitar to play while I prayed. Immediately everything changed... I sang the one song that has touched me so deeply in the recent past: God of my Forever. While singing and praying, I began to cry once again in His Presence which was so strong even till now to me... I pray that God will takeover, that I'll really learn to die to myself, my flesh. God is my all, how since I was a youth I was so deeply touched that I decided to rise up to answer my calling. And I remembered the word that Pst Zhuang during last week's zone meeting, of how we need to cherish our calling. And the word that he shared this week on whether we have a Dream that we are willing to die for...

I have.

I'm willing to do anything for this dream(s) to come to pass. That was why I decided to wake up at 5am to pray these 3days since I'm fasting, might as well make use of the time to press in to God and sensitize myself to Him. I'm glad that I did. I feel soooooo much better now.

My dream(s) will come to pass, just you wait and see. =)

Singapore River

Oh how I love this place... the little boats that move up and down ferrying tourists so that they can enjoy the beautiful scenery in the heart of the business district in Singapore; the many trees providing shelter from the occasional afternoon sun; the gentle breeze that blows through my hair; the calm water surface that stirs every time the boats move through or water drips in from the branch tips of the trees.... Ahh... what serenity....

And this is my "Secret Place"... Oh how I thank God for bringing me to this place. Instead of walking round and round some shopping place or continue to work while fasting, God is soooo good to bring me here. My one place that I just love so much cos I literally experience heaven on earth as I stand by the river sides to pray. Seeing the waters stirring occasionally, or how the water moves as droplets fall in, I literally "see" what I'm praying for.

God stir the hearts of my members during this Arise and Build that they will give their best to You. God stir up their hearts to beat with compassion once again to reach out to the lost. God enlarge our tents like how the circle of water enlarges as droplets fall onto the river surface. God enlarge our capacity to contain the new friends that come in so that they will be integrated into our CG. God cause our CG to grow and expand so that we will be the ones contributing to the growth when our church hits 30,000!

How fast time flies when you're having a good time with God. Oh how I love this place... Maybe I'll prayer walk Singapore River sometime in the future, and pray that Christians working all over this area will really rise up and be the salt and light in the marketplace that God has placed us in...

My heart is so full and overwhelmed now... How I wish my lunch time won't end so that I could just continue to dwell in my Secret Place...

On a separate note, WYZ leaders will be having a BBQ cum leaders meeting tonight. So excited for it!!! Just in time after my fast also? Heee.... Soooo happy that we can spend time to fellowship with Pst and with one another. Thanks Pst!!! In the eyes of all the leaders in WYZ, you're THE BEST!!! =)