Jaded

1. Worn out, wearied, or lacking enthusiasm; exhausted.
2. Cynically insensitive; made callous by experience.

Recently this word has been used so often by the people around me that it made me wonder, like when our parents were our age did they use to struggle with this emotion as well?

When people that were so dear to us (in the past at least) let us down when we tried to salvage the relationship. And so we stumble into a wall of stone-coldness for the longest time. Then one day out of the blue, we suddenly get invited to their wedding after not responding to us for like 10years? (P/s: I'm not referring to anyone in my circle of friends in particular, just an account of what my JC friend told me some time back) This was what made my friend feel J.A.D.E.D. She has since lost hope in meaningful friendships and relationships.

I was attending one of my friend's wedding when my friends were talking about how divorces are so rampant these days. So much so that they didn't feel like attending weddings anymore cos so many of their friends divorce in the near future. My friends were even asking stuff like shouldn't they all be reimbursed since they feel "cheated emotionally" that they attended their dinner in the 1st place?

People can let us down in so many ways that the whole cybernet would run out of "space" if we were to list them. That over time, I've learnt not to expect so much from people sometimes. Afterall, they are only humans and so are we. Nothing is going to change the fact that we will be let down no matter how much we love them or they love us (at least that's what they say or so we assume...)

I've learnt a long time ago to just let go and trust only (mainly) in One. And for you, you need to go through the healing of your heart.

But this doesn't stop the tears from flowing. And I dun think they ever will. Yet I'm not jaded, because I've found my Hope. No matter how much the tears flow. Afterall, I'm only human...