The *REAL* me?

Inspired by what dear Cin put on her blog, I went to give it a try myself:

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The Real You
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

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Kinda timely considering what I blogged about not so long ago... As for whether their description of me is the REAL me?

That's for me to know, and You to find out! =)

HELP!!!!

1 colleague resigned, 1 colleague on long leave and another 1 on MC for 1 week...

I'm supposed to cover them all.

HOW???????

This is madness......

Why is it that everywhere I go, I seem to attract lots of work to myself... =(

*SIGH*

Will the REAL me please stand up

Before I actually go about writing about Charity Day, I just thought I would blog on this instead. Just some observations and thoughts on this...

Well the other time in my Mini DHS Gathering post I mentioned about how the real me was someone that kept quiet listening to the conversations of my friends who tried to help LQ with getting married. Plus what I heard and experienced today, it made me think further about being real.

Which is the real me actually? The one who's the life of the party talking and joking loudly or the quiet girl blending in nicely with the background.

Though a large part of me seems to agree with the latter, but I dun think I'm being a fake when I'm the life of the party. I guess it's just a different side of me which comes out as and when it is necessary. Though if given the choice, I seriously do NOT mind being the person who just listens.

But I soooooo agree with what Pst says, that if we wanna soar like eagles then we need to stop hanging around turkeys. There have been countless people that I've seen with such great potentials but some how when they hang out with people so-called their good friends, they become someone almost unrecognisable. A compulsion to fit in? Perhaps. But if I need to change to a different person just to fit in with my good friends, then are these people really my good friends? And if that is the real me instead, does that mean the person that seemingly has potential is not the real me? I'm using the 1st person sentence structure not because that's happening to me, but I guess this will seem less threatening just in case the person I'm referring to happens to chance upon this post. =)

To me, good friends are NOT good friends to me if there are so many things that I dare not say to them. If there is no open communication, such ones are not my good friends. Not that I need to share EVERYTHING but I share cos I trust the person. Else, I'm sorry but you are not my good friend. I'm just not the type to segregate my life. If you dun trust me, then dun bother sharing cos I won't be interested as well.

I guess it's inevitable that we live our lives with different facades. BUT I thought being a christian unmasks a person so that we become real. What is being real?

Quiet vs Loud (it's still real)

But mannerisms to me if they change, then one of it is not real. If one moment you're edifying, saying and doing all the right things but once the group of people around you changes and you turn into an uncouth, inconsiderate and timid person something is wrong in this picture. The real you is the not-so-nice person I'm afraid...

So the moral of the story is, if you wanna soar in the sky then hang around people who wants to fly as well!

Stay away from those that hold you back, talk bad about others (esp their OWN leaders), enjoy having their own pity-party, dwell on the negative all the time, talking about how glorious their PAST was.

Come on, get over it! IF you truly wanna move on, then move. Stop commenting on others that wanna move on and despise their small beginnings.

Somehow I think I digressed along the way but that's just how I feel about friends.

There. Hee... =)

Sneaks to Charity Day

Here's a NICE photo for you as a sneak preview to Charity Day...



I'll write about it as soon as I gather more photos on what happened yesterday! =)

Feeling sleepy after a heavy lunch and much running around taking photos...

Took photos with Felicia Chin, Fiona Xie and Adrian Pang! But... most of the photos are NOT in my hp but with my friend, so you all will need to wait before seeing them... =)

For now...

I'm falling asleep from a HEAVY lunch...

*yawn*

TODAY IS CHARITY DAY!!!!!!

WooHoo....

The much talked-about-long-awaited day is finally here!

Will upload the photos and update the happenings leta! =)

Mini DHSSB 1996 Gathering

I went for a mini DHSSB 1996 gathering on Sunday.

Firstly I wanna apologise to LM for being late... *Sorry my dear*

She so kindly offered to send me there yet I was late, and my dear friend actually went all the way home and then came out again to send me there! * So touched*

We were like 30mins late, and to our joy there were already people there when we reached! =)

YH and her husband Khet (who had grown to be like a part of us...), KJ and JT were already there. Our KJ as usual looks so much like a small little boyboy... But mai siao siao k. He's a Financial Planner, a Housing Agent, Assistant Manager of a flower shop and a Managing Director of his OWN company. He told us he sleeps like 4hrs a day, managing his US inventory-based company and watch his stocks while US works... Truly I'm so amazed... He's non like the person we knew back then. In our batch, only like 6-7 out of 500 whose results could not make it JC and his results were kinda close to those 6-7 people. And now look at him. How people change, thank God for the better.

Others slowly streamed in... People like ZK (a rare guest!), and of course the usual GH, LQ and Ryan (her BF). I was thinking, what a good representation: 3 from woodwinds, 3 from brass and 1 percussion. hehehe... I truly wonder how would it be like to have an official major gathering, even if it's just for my batch. I heard people like LJ already has a baby boy! I believe she's the 1st to be a mum... =)

After the usual catch-ups, we adjourned to another place in Siglap - The Coffee Club. And then I realised that out of 8 of us, 7 drove. No prizes for guessing who didn't.

*sigh*

It's like all of a sudden, thoughts like what am I actually doing with my life came gushing to me once again... All my peers are successful people... Let's see, we have 2 signed-on navy crew, a teacher, an entrepreneur, an audit supervisor, a banker, a doctor, 2 pharmaceutical engineers and me... I'm just a small little accountant struggling to make some decent savings... :'(

REALLY.

What am I doing with my life?

Can anyone help me answer this question...

*sigh*

I guess the only comfort I have is that I dun need to go through what our dear LQ has to. Seriously we all do not really like her BF but after listening to what he has gone through, I kinda pity him. They are our modern version of R&J. While the rest all had so many things to say on how to encourage them and get her mum to allow them to get married, I somehow just remained quiet. Once again, the real me surfaces in front of all the "I" people.

But I really wanna wish LQ all the best. It's not going to be an easy life for her from now till a long long time from now... And she's such a sweet gal...

God I pray that You'll be there with her whenever she has to go through all these...

Oh I do miss hanging out with them. People who have known me half my life. More than half actually. Been through so many things since those times. It's great to have such gatherings. =)

Thanks to GH for always being such a sport to organise such gatherings! =)

NOW.

After such a gathering, many things going through my head actually.

But back to the question of what am I doing with my life... I think this is something that I'll be thinking about till 2007 ends. Something that I will no doubt be praying about at least till then as well...

God I commit my life into Your hands. I know You will never short-change me no matter how reality may seem to be now... :'(

amen

I'm feeling so tired once again... What's with sundays and mondays? =(

Once again...

I'm feeling so tired once again...

Is it a lack of sleep? Or is it like Prov 13:12... "Hope deferred makes the heart sick..."

God when will my breakthru come?

I need a Word, I need a God moment...

Unique fellowship group with Pst (Updated)

All thanks to W, I got the chance to fellowship with Pst yesterday night after ZM. He had to do this just because I bao dou what happened to him on monday to GY lo...

Gerry, GY says that we can post the *ahem* of *ahem* on Youtube eh! He even has a name for it: From Coast to Toast.... haahahaaaaa......

I was initially not quite sure that I could make it in time for ZM. But after losing focus and concentration on my work at 8plus, I decided to be 萧洒 and just leave to go for ZM. =)

And from my office to YMCA is so near... So I reached there only at 9plus while the rest of the leaders were still in the midst of praying. For the FIRST time, GY subzone had full attendance yesterday! WOW!!! =)

Anyway, everything went as per normal until just before we were about to leave. Pst suddenly walked by to talk to us and asked if we were going to have supper with him. W enthusiastically nodded while I told Pst that I don't think I will join him this time round. Then Pst said, "So Sab is not keen to fellowship with me, then nevermind la..." Wa.... So sad eh... And so I decided to go together with him, since he put it this way... I'm always willing one ok, just that yesterday was kinda tired after all the fire fighting at work BUT nevertheless I still went! =)

The funny thing was, it turned out that the crowd yesterday was exceptionally small...

There were only like 7 of us Including Pst himself. And except for him, all the rest of us stay in the west! I believe this is a 1st time that such a group came about... So as usual it was a great time of fellowship since it was such a small group. It's always amazing to spend time with Pst, to hear from him many things that he doesn't usually share when all of us gather and to talk about non-official things...

I shall cut away all the unnecessary details and hence by the time I reached home, it was already like 1plus am... So much for wanting to go home early... I kinda overslept this morning cos I just couldn't bring myself to get up...

I think, I need to cut down on my night life from now on.... Of course UNLESS it's an invitation from Pst... heheee..... =)

Will you be my 77th reader?

Hey... If you are, tag me ok? =)

I discovered...

Attended ZP and Fyfy's wedding last night... It was a rather nice place, cool and Al Fresco kind of tentage. But not a very conducive place for a matrimony actually. Many people had small talk while Pst was preaching and since there was no live-video streaming, kinda hard to focus on the whole process.

Ok I confess, I for one were those distracted... Cos I was seriously very very hungry... =(

I walked from my office to that place and it took me about 30 mins! Walked from Raffles MRT to Boat Quay, to Riverwalk, to MICA to Funan to Fire Station and then up the hill pass Bible House and the many other buildings too dark to even notice what they are...

So we did something really dumb actually, we requested for peanuts in the midst of the matrimony... *sorry Pst, ZP and Fyfy*

SM Goh and his wife came to grace the event also! How cool can that be!!! =) But we didn't manage to take a photo with him, only stood there and waved at him in a rather silly manner cos he was leaving while the whole group of us were trying to take a photo (without the couple)... Guess we really dunno how to behave in front of important government ministers...

But well, the rest of the night was fun though the food was so-so only... With me and Gerry around, how can it not be fun???!!!! Right *wil*? Hahahaa... One day, maybe just one day we'll let you in part of our gals talk k? hehehee....

Not forgetting Alexis our "Tomb Raider", so appropriately dressed for the occasion while we climbed up the hill passed things which sure do resemble tombs... ehehe...

I haven't uploaded the few photos that we took together yet. Perhaps Gerry will have the honor of doing so? =) Not forgetting our prized video of *ahem*... =)

Ok, I better get back to work now. My in tray is once again reaching it's telephone directory kind of height... *sob sob*

Why am I always so tired on monday... =(

Amused from morning...

My colleagues are so AMUSING people...

Especially those sitting next to me! Which on my right is my direct mini boss - Assistant Manager and on my left another Assistant Manager and the Senior Accountant. Actually they are all the "high-level" people other than my boss yet they are the wackiest bunch of aunties and uncle that I've ever seen.

Love them! =)

不能说的秘密... 被发现了

My whole department just came back from lunch like 30mins ago... without my boss.

It was supposed to be a secret cos it's an "internal" farewell lunch for 1 of my colleagues who's leaving next Friday. I'm going to miss her... ='(

Anyway, it was a tremendously secretive lunch. Just when we were all going out, my boss called in our assistant manager and the senior accountant into her room. And so we were delayed. Our other assistant manager asked the rest of us to go ahead 1st. So the 6 of us all sneaked out... Then it started to drizzle and we had to walk quickly over there... only to realise that they have given up our table since we were late (and also cos we booked with our senior accountant's name and he's still stuck in office and could not answer his HP!)... We waited... and waited.. and waited... Until our 3 mini bosses reach before we finally gotten our table.

Everything afterwards happened very very quickly. My assistant manager ordered food by pointing at ALL the pictures on the menu.

"This one we want 2 sets, this one also 2, this one 1 set, etc..."

Food was served quickly as we gobbled down all the food and left the place in 30mins.

As we reached our office, we hurriedly walked back to our room, scattering ourselves with some going to the toilet 1st, some walking the long way round... But lo and behold, our settlements colleague gushed towards us. She told us that boss came round looking for us THREE TIMES while we were gone for that 1.5hrs. Once our boss even exclaimed, "Where is everybody from the Finance team??!!!!"

Minutes later, my assistant manager received a call... She kena scolded for not inviting her for the lunch... But then... life still goes on... like now... hahaa...

*burp*

God's Visitation

I had a God moment last night.

It just happened suddenly while talking to my member on MSN and listening to the song on my blog. It's like all of a sudden, God walked into my room...

His presence was so strong that many times I felt like crying even while I was chatting.

Oh how I love such moments. It wasn't really the "best" conditions when He appeared. My tv was on, I was playing Facebook, logged onto my oh-so-forgotten Friendster and generally just chatting. But when He stepped in, suddenly it's like my whole world just slowed down. And so I slowly started to close off the distracting things as He drew close. I switched off the tv, closed all my programmes one by one, just leaving my blog page on cos the song was still playing.

And at that moment, I had an encounter with God.

I closed my eyes are started to fellowship with the One that I love so dearly. When I opened my eyes again, I realised that time just flew by. Though I slept at close to 2am, I was up again this morning just to chat with Him once more. And strangely, I don't feel tired though I slept like only 4hrs.

I love such God moments. =)

I wonder...

Seriously... I'm starting to wonder who are all the people reading my blog. Suddenly the Blogpatrol jumps and I'm starting to think... I don't think I even told that many people about my blog. So who are all the others? Are they wondering people who just happen to chance upon my blog in some search site or are they really people who know me.

Actually, I should be using the words You rite, since You are reading this now? haha....

So who are You (yes You), the one reading my blog. hee...

Suddenly i feel so ~ naked ~

Nah.... I dun put my innermost thoughts here because I know the whole world may be reading it for all I know. Actually I'm not a very open person if you know what I mean... But well, at least here's a good avenue to release the rest of me. =)

A Trend

I just realised a trend...

Most of my friends (ok which are not that many since my blog is not well-publicised) all read my blog during their OFFICE hours!

Makes me wonder who's REALLY working 100% of their office hours...

HP Photos Uploaded!

WooHoo!!!

I've finally uploaded my HP Photos to my bro's computer... Why not my own laptop you might ask? Well cos my wireless have been having problems since Monday! It was having problems just now until I mumbled a prayer that I could get online tonight and it worked!!! God listens to little prayers as well... =)

And so as NOT to miss the kairos moment, I immediately did whatever that needs to be done. Like quickly check all my external emails (my office blocks all external emails cos my boss thinks that with that enabled, we would waste time doing personal stuff in office), search for things online and of course upload my beautiful photos! So now I can finally clear my HP space for MORE photo-taking sessions! Heee...

And I've emailed all my photos to ALL my other email accounts so that wherever I am at, I can have access to them! How cool is that?! Hee...

So watch out for all my long-awaited photo-filled posts, about my D n D, my mystery friend, my company's upcoming Charity day... With all these, so please stay tuned... =)

Alright guess that all for now... Here's your blogger signing off...

Sab =)

My FATTENING Office

This place that I work in, is making me FAT. =(

Right NOW, these 2 things rest at the side of me:

This is a Cheese Crab Puff from Polar...

And this is Curry Puff from some unknown place...

Remember about the roster that I mentioned drawn up by my colleague last week? Well, this is the 2nd last day that we're having our tea breaks... Yes there's still 1 more day left of it! Oh man... Well my colleague went to buy the Cheese Crab Puff for us as part of her deal... BTW, it's NOT nice...

And then suddenly, this new guy from the Settlements department went around distributing Curry Puffs!!! Upon questioning then we realised that he's buying us tea break cos it's his 1 month anniversary here... (I didn't get anyone anything on my 1 month anniversary previously). Thank God I'm fasting tomorrow else I'll probably go crazy with all the smells permeating around in this little room of ours. Can't they make it a "little" easier for people who fast here? =(

And on top of this, there is our usual TWO rounds drinks made by our nice tea ladies here, once in the morning and once in the afternoon. I've opted out of that indefinitely cos I'm sure I can do with the added sugar in my drinks for now...

BIG SIGH...

Increase!

I'm expecting to integrate 2 persons into CG from this week onwards! I'm excited!!!!

I shall fast tomorrow to ensure that everything will go on smoothly! WooHoo!!!! ;D

More to COME... More TO COME... MORE TO COME!!!

AMEN

I WANT A BREAKTHRU!!!!

Sigh...

Henceforth, thou shalt NOT be lazy... =(

A word from ck

Every morning, leave your worries outside your gate, coz that's where they pick up the garbage! Have a worry free day!

So true!!!

Leave all our bad attitudes and other distracting negative thoughts there also! Don't stay in a rubbish dump... =)

Thoughts on the train...

As I was on the train this morning, the life that I'm living now just ran through my mind. Though I do not lead a perfect life, but after those few moments of doing an audit of my life I'm glad to say:

I LOVE MY LIFE!

I may not be leading the kind of life that I dreamt of but nevertheless I'm still glad that I'm not living the kind of life that I detest! =)

Many times we go through our lives regretting of not doing this and that. My life used to be like that too, so much so that after I became a Christian I even wrote a poem about NOT living my life this way. [maybe i should go dig that out and post it here?] Though I do not lead the kind of high-flyers life, staying in BIG houses (not yet at least), working in HUGE corporations that perhaps own several buildings in Singapore (not yet also =) ) but I know that I've not lived my life in vain.

Perhaps to many my life may seem so mundane, being busy with my usual things and my ministry... Like exactly during the Easter weekend next year, my company is organising a FREE trip to Shanghai. I already indicated that I'm not going because how can I not be around on such an important day for CHC? My boss and my colleagues have tried to persuade me to change my mind. Seriously I really wanna go Shanghai and furthermore it's free, seems such silliness to sacrifice that. But I guess to me some things just matter more than others. Sometimes even freebies and money doesn't seem all that important in comparison. And maybe to many that's like losing my freedom. But I guess to those that are not willing to lead such a life, they will never understand the rewards of it as well...

I guess to me life is all about making a difference. Doesn't have to be impacting hundreds all at one go (at least not yet for me) but making a difference to one person at a time per day of my life is enough to bring fulfillment to me. Lots of it actually. This life is too tough to go through it alone. But why do we need to go through it alone when we have Jesus and the Holy Spirit with us?

It's not about being a fanatic... Rather, I just want to make my life count. Even if at the end of the day, all religions and such are fakes and we all just die into nothingness... At least my pre-nothingness counted for those that I've touched.

That is more than enough for me.

Restless...

OK...

I dunno why but I'm feeling extremely R~E~S~T~L~E~S~S now... I just cannot sit still! The moment I sit at my table to work, my mind wonders off to some mindless thoughts. When my mind is not wondering, I'm struggling to keep my eyes open.

~why~

*Aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...................................*

Band Music

With the most heartfelt thanks going out to my dearest Judy!!!! Who painstakingly print screen for me step-by-step on how to add this playlist here... Love you loads my precious! =)

I managed to add in a new playlist of my fave band music! While I go on searching for more of the most memorable of my memories, please enjoy a few of my favourites for now (which I can remember their names and coincidentally are all written by John Williams). John Williams to me is the GREATEST composer for band music ever!

Nostalgia

I was just surfing Yuzhen's multiply site last night when I heard the oh-so-familiar band music once again. Suddenly it seems like I've been transported back to those times when I was part of DHS / TJC band. All the times that we sent together practising, either sections or combined. How I missed those times... Though many things happened in those days (we were still so young and childish at that time) but it still remains a sweet memory to me.

As I was walking to the CCK station this morning, I suddenly remembered the tune of the song Oregon. What a lovely song! I remember this was the song that while I was in sec 1, my sec 4 seniors played it for their graduation day. And if I'm not wrong we played it for our graduation day also cos we simply loved it to bits! It definitely was NOT an easy song to play given its extremely high notes for my section but nevertheless we would put in many hours of hard work just to polish up our parts...

I missed the sounds of the many instruments coming together all over me as I count the number of rest bars we have. I missed practising on the really nice solos or melodies even though our lips will turn red and maybe even be swollen due to the many hours of practice we put in. I missed the times when we played a piece almost perfectly with all the expressions and emotions that the song was trying to convey. Unforgettable sounds. So different from simply listening to a CD.

I miss playing in the band...

To all my previous band mates out there (who may never ever read this since I dun remember telling any of you about this site), especially my dear DHS friends, I miss us playing together! If there's a chance, let's play together again ok? =)

Tea Break

I'm having break now from my "lesson". My dear colleague is leaving so I'm undergoing coaching from her to takeover things from her before we can find a replacement...

Although in the email it seems like I'm only taking over 1 BIG thing, split into several lines, but my notes for it has already spanned over like 6 pages for now. Yet I'm not even halfway through... Oh God, please send all of us here by sending a replacement REALLY SOON!

Talking about tea breaks, i've been having tea breaks EVERYDAY thanks to CSS. Cos out of 9 people in my whole department, only 4 of US didn't get any Lucky Draw prize so my colleague very bu4 gan1 yuan4. He drew up a roster for those who won to buy us tea breaks and hence it increases once again the amout of food we take in... *getting fat* SIGH

Office Toilet

The above is a picture of the toilet in my office. Hahaa...

The reason I put that is because it's like a freezer there lo!!!! Can hear the STRONG aircon as if electricity is free.

*Brrrrrrrrr*

Tuesday WITHOUT ZM

Feels kinda lost actually after receiving Pst's sms on not having ZM today so that we can visit or follow-up on the nf. I'm going to give BS tmr and meet Gab on Thurs so that leaves me free for tonight... I'll work on the rest in-between... =)

Stayed in office till 8pm! What a feat, 1st time I must say for me... hehe... Hopefully it will NOT be often from now on. Considering that L is leaving but we still cannot find someone to replace her yet. I'll miss her! Tell L we love her, tell L we'll miss her... Hahaaa..... I've decided to sing this song to her on her last day! =)

Tmr LC will be speaking to me about taking over some of L's work. Ah well... Within expectation I guess. :/ So would anyone that is able to work the capacity of Senior Accounts Supervisor PLEASE kindly apply for the position so that ALL of us can go home on time????

Anyway, after work I decided to be a 乖 grand daughter and go visit my grandma. She suddenly had kidney failure last Sunday so was admitted to hospital since then. She looks alright to me, just that her legs are swollen. But I can't say the same for the lady in the bed next to hers. Was kinda scared looking at her. That lady was REALLY white (it's not even fair, it's WHITE)! She really looked like she was so uncomfortable and kept calling out to the nurses to turn her over. I felt to sad looking at her. Oh man.... dun understand why I always seem to pity old folks like her which I feel quite bad about. Cos I always feel that if I were them, I won't want people to pity me. Of which my friends say that I'm so heartless! But I'm NOT!!! Ah well....

So my mum and I left not long after as it was getting late and it started to pour. What a Tuesday... Instead of the usual ZM that I'm usually at.

Oh and did I mention that my bro's not home this 2 weeks? He's having reservist. So his computer is ALL MINE! *muhahahaaaa*

BUT his comp is really S-L-O-W. The only thing good is that it has a mouse. I usually use my own laptop literally on my lap so I do not have a mouse for it... =(

Maybe ONE day I should write about my bro in my blog! Hahaha... I wonder if he talks about me in his! Hmmm... A kinda strange relationship I have with him. Not so close yet not so distant... And his life story is kinda dramatic! Like how he became a Christian, or how his last relationship ended. Of which I think 家丑不可外洋 so I better not anyhow talk about it... I think I only shared in detail what happened with like 2-3 people? It's really like Days of Our Lives with less complications. Material worthy for Soap Opera. I'm really very thankful to God that my own life is much simpler. Cos I'm a simple gal. Has been and always will be! *yeah*

Am going to PROCLAIM:

明天会更好

New things!

I've added NEW things to my blog!

1) Blog Patrol

2) Music

3) Tagboard

I'm so proud of myself! Hehee...

And so Jean is right! Blogging not so hard after all... Working on further beautifying this haven I've created for myself on Cyber Space...

*tata*

Added Music!!

Woohoo!!!!!

I'm so excited! I've finally successfully added music to my blog! And it's Not thru posting a song! Weeeeee!!!!

Many thanks to my dearest Judy and Qizheng, contributing in your own significant ways to the Great feat that I just did.

Yay!!!!

Ok , now to STOP procrastinating uploading all my b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l photos from my hp and my blog will at least be presentable... while I move on to the next step of changing this skin into something that J'adore. =)

SHOUTS OUT:

我 好 累 啊!!!!!!!

Adding music to my Blog

Let's see if this works...

祢爱永不变

祢 流 出 宝 血
洗 净 我 污 秽
将 我 的 生 命 赎 回

祢 为 了 我 的 罪
牺 牲 永 不 悔
显 明 祢 极 大 恩 惠

我 深 深 体 会
祢 爱 的 宝 贵
献 上 自 己 永 追 随
或 伤 心 或 气 馁 或 生 离 或 死 别
愿 刚 强 壮 胆 永 远 不 后 退

喔。。。祢 爱 永 不 变
从 今 直 到 永 远
深 深 浇 灌 我 心 田
或 天 旋 或 地 转
经 沧 海 历 桑 田
都 不 能 叫 我 与 祢 爱 隔 绝

Sharing with you my worship song for this morning...

*what a beautiful song*

God of My Forever

God of my youth I remember
Your call in my life took me o'er
Your love has seen me through all my days
I stand here by Your grace

On this altar I've written my life
Tells of the story I have with You my Lord
I want the world to know

God of my Forever
And forever I'm with You
My life is saved with a price
Your sacrifice redeemed my soul
God of my forever
And forever I will sing
My greatest honor will always be
To serve my Lord and King

God of my all I've surrendered
My heart find its rest in Your word
Praises will not be enough to show
How my love for You has grown
Nothing matters when You're here with me
In the end just to hear You say "Well done"
Bowing before Your throne

Forever and ever
Jesus You alone in glory reign
Forever and ever
With You I walk this narrow way

Many thanks to K.C. for writing this beautiful and heartfelt song! =)

Dying to Self and for my Dream

I struggled with sleeping last night cos I was still very bothered with what happened... So much so that I tried to sleep at 11pm but ended up still wide awake at 12.20am. I couldn't take it anymore so I decided at that time to get up and pray. After lifting it to God, I finally manged to fall asleep soon after...

I set my alarm to wake up at 5am to pray. Actually I did it on Wed morning too, but my weak attempt to pray only lasted for like 10mins before I fell asleep again. But this morning I was wide awake. Though my sleep was a peaceful one after praying the night before, those thoughts came back to me again once I woke up. I mumbled my prayer to God once again. I told God that I want to let go of those thoughts and the feelings that are attached to it.

Not sensing a breakthru in my spirit, I decided to take up my guitar to play while I prayed. Immediately everything changed... I sang the one song that has touched me so deeply in the recent past: God of my Forever. While singing and praying, I began to cry once again in His Presence which was so strong even till now to me... I pray that God will takeover, that I'll really learn to die to myself, my flesh. God is my all, how since I was a youth I was so deeply touched that I decided to rise up to answer my calling. And I remembered the word that Pst Zhuang during last week's zone meeting, of how we need to cherish our calling. And the word that he shared this week on whether we have a Dream that we are willing to die for...

I have.

I'm willing to do anything for this dream(s) to come to pass. That was why I decided to wake up at 5am to pray these 3days since I'm fasting, might as well make use of the time to press in to God and sensitize myself to Him. I'm glad that I did. I feel soooooo much better now.

My dream(s) will come to pass, just you wait and see. =)

It happened again

It happened again...

My day started off rather well but this thing caused me to sink down again... Oh God, please help me...

*无声的讷喊*

Spotted @ my Secret Place!!

OH NO!!!!

I've been spotted by my boss at my Secret Place!!!!

To prevent her from thinking that I'm some nut-case-cum-suicidal-wacko who skips lunch to walk by the river... Plan B will kick in place from tomorrow onwards...

Singing Lady in the Loo

SHOUT OUT: I JUST FINALLY MET THE SINGING LADY IN THE LOO!!!!

=)

Deja Vu

I had just another Deja Vu moment like 1hr ago!

Why is this office so familiar to me???

Encounter after Driving...

Though blurry-eyed, I made my way for my driving lesson after work on monday. I learnt vertical parking that day, so cool! I'm indeed on my way to having a license on Jan 08! =)

But the main thing I wanna write about was what happened after driving. I was waiting for the train as I resumed my usual train-waiting position: leaning on the railling looking into nothingness across the station. Suddenly I saw this "hand-wave" movement across the platform and so I looked up. And standing directly opposite me was this Indian guy that I've no idea who waving at me and he shouted 'Hi' right across the platform. Still not yet awake from my "stoning", I only managed to muster up a faint smile before I looked away again. Having seen my "lack-of-enthusiasm" look, he kinda sheepishly quickly walked away.

Within the next second, lots of things ran through my mind... Who in the world was he? Why was he smiling at me? (I was dressed in a lousy red t-shirt with my worst pair of jeans from home so I wasn't in my best form...) Why is he so friendly to me? What was it that he wanted? Was my respond unfriendly? But I didn't know him anyway so why should I bother to smile and respond in too friendly a manner?

And then the next thought... Why am I so unfriendly to strangers? And I remembered years back when I just came back from a vacation from Australia. I experienced cultural shock the moment I touched down onto Singapore and thought to myself, why are Singaporeans so rude and unfriendly...

Lo and behold several years later, I've turned into the exact person that I once couldn't stand... Sigh...

Blurry-eyed Monday morn...

Have you ever had days where you opened your eyes and all you see is a BLUR in front of you? Even after you put on your glasses or contacts? It's one of those days for me Again... I wonder if it's due to an over-dosage of cough mixture that I drank before I slept last night. Supposed to drink 10ml (if necessary, as stated on the bottle label), but lazy me drank straight from the bottle and when i checked how much I drank... I then realised that I consumed an EXTRA 5ml so I drank 15ml in total! Is this like a hang-over from over-dosage of "drugs"? Hmm...

Looking out of my window now is like watching a movie. There goes my sea and ships and Ferris wheel... Clouds and rain and whatever that makes the sky all dark and gloomy is covering my beautiful scenery... So depressing... =(

Yesterday's fellowship was kinda relaxing to me. I brought Ming Yang and Joy to one of my fave place near my office... Yes this just shows how much I love this place... So much that I wanna show it off to everyone I know AND even bring them to deserted Raffles Place on a SUNDAY! Haa... But it's a great place, I'm sure the both of them agree. And sitting there talking and just looking at the waters is simply so therapeutic. Ok well, even more so when you're having a nice drink with dear ones around you... =) We talked from like 4plus to 7plus man... I think I've managed to rub off my "talking-non-stop" skills to them. No photos for now again as my cam is exploding with little memory left. I AM definitely going to upload my photos on to my laptop and then post it here so that I can start my photo-taking sessions again.

Not forgetting to blog about my NICE dinner and drinks session with my dear dear friend... who strangely told me NOT to mention her name ALTHOUGH she's ok that I put her pretty face here... hee... I've already thought of a way of "naming" you my dear friend.. Just stay tuned... AND I'm not forgetting about working part-time on Project A. ;P

Gerry just shared with me the miracle that her CG recently experienced... How it grew from 12 to 17 and 21 last weekend!!!! I'm believing God for the same to happen to my CG! All the way for Kingdom GROWTH! Our turn will come soon my dears... Just HANG in there and Trust God! =)

Rainy Tuesday Afternoon...

It's drizzling now... So sad that I cannot go visit my Secret Place now... Can only observe it from my office window...

It was really quite a mad rush for me yesterday, but thank God that everything is OVER. Now i just need to focus on writing my Monthly Biz Report which is due in 2 days...

But frankly working here is really different. The people, the culture, the environment, the scenery... Haaa.... I love the view from the window behind me! I don't think my HP camera will do justice to the great view here. The ships, the sea, the river, the greenery.... So many beautiful things for me to "stand and stare" at. That's why the boss is sooooo clever to put it all BEHIND us. HE's the only one in the whole office to have the view in FRONT of him... Haaa....

Been talking to various ones, so there are many thoughts running through my head now. Of course things like growth and breakthru in my CG will always be there. *We need to pray and pray and fast and fast and pray and pray MORE* Promotions and financial prosperity. Oh ya, I PASSED my PAC! YEAH.... Time to register for my CPA. And my current company WILL pay for my membership subscription! Hee... This once again shows me that thinking about things will not make things happen. Things only happen once you DO SOMETHING about it. And of course prayer plays an important role also... =)

Oh man I digressed again. Ok some other thoughts on my mind, building fund (which I think to me reality hasnt sank in yet). My driving (and the cost of it accumulating at the back of my head). Life basically in general for the people around me. How can I be a salt and light here where I am? How can I be relevant to the working class and yet stay rooted in my convictions and beliefs?

I really feel so excited in my spirit... Something is going to happen... I just need to hang in there... Seek God more... My destiny is in the making, nearer than ever before! =)

AR Closing not done yet...

So stressed... AR has not yet been closed... It's already Day3! God please help me... I still need to start writing my Management Business Report soon... Plus the 2inches-thick of Interco journals to post... *faint*

Failed Experiment...

Sigh... I've been trying since 9plus to try to "beautify" my blog. Found some really cool skins BUT somehow there's just something wrong with the codes... WHY!!!!!! No one else seems to have problems downloading it and using it except me...

Can anyone out there tell me what is "the markup preceeding the root element must be well-formed"??? *sob sob*

Once again I have effectively wasted my precious sunday night doing things which is NOT fruitful at all... Can someone PLEASE give me back my sunday evening cos it's already 11pm NOW...... *bang head*

Random Ramblings...

Ok... I'm just gonna type some random things on my mind here for now:

1) It's month-end!!!! My 1st official month-end where I'm on my own... So kan cheong yesterday cos there was something wrong with my comp that I could not run a VERY IMPT report! Thanks God for Silva who saved me by discovering that her comp could still run the report... BUT Silva is on leave next week which leaves me all alone to do up my Management Business Report. God I need you!!!

2) Today I noticed a really strange thing. Separately at 4.15pm and 5.15pm, 2 of my colleagues suddenly went to brush their teeth! Makes me wonder why while working, they would suddenly feel that they should go brush their teeth... It's been some time after lunch and it's no where very near going home time, why suddenly decide to brush teeth? Hmm... Humans are strange creatures...

3) Out of 5 days for this week, I received 3 lunch treats!!! Hahaa... As you can see from my earlier post on monday which my big boss took me out for an expensive lunch, I got lunch treats both yesterday and today! Yesterday's treat was really an "overflow" thing from my very funny colleagues.
You see, they actually made a bet on whether the FED was going to cut rates again by the end of Oct! *see how no life accountants are?* It was really funny cos one of them read amiss that FED was going to cut rates by the end of this MONTH (when the report states that they are surely going to do it by the end of this YEAR). So seeing the great opportunity, my other colleague happily agreed! BUT a twist happened when FED announced at Singapore time 31st Oct NIGHT that they are in fact going to cut rates AGAIN! So my colleague that read amiss actually won the bet! And since me and my yet another colleague (have I lost you on who's who yet? hehee...) always lunches together with that guy, we got roped in for the FREE DIM SUM lunch! WooHoo.....
And as for today, met Leah up for lunch. And she so dearly bought me lunch. So that makes it TRICE this week! Hahaa... When I told Leah about it, she replied and said that it must have been that I have been sowing "lunches" into other people's lives which in fact is rather true! Not really "lunches" but I do buy people lunch / dinner every now and then for various reasons... so I guess even for food, the principle of sowing and reaping still stands! Haha...
And while the times I give a treat to others does not really cost much, the lunches people treat me to this week cost an estimate of about.. S$70! God is good... =)

4) Arise and Build is just in 2 days time for me. I'm excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! While due to somethings that happened that cause me not to be able to give as much as I would love to, I believe that God sees my heart and my sacrifice. I will still give my BEST and match up to at least the level that I've been giving all these years. For You God, ANYTHING! =)

Oh man.... Soooooo many things to write actually. And so you can see that I'm quite a "talkative" person in writing... heehe... But it's getting late and I'm getting tired. Wanna catch up with Him before I become too tired to do so.

Till my next rambling... =)

JH's soooooo Encouraging!

Jean Ho.... You're my princess in shiny armour (Hmm.. Or you prefer to be clad in a beautiful dress instead?)!

You actually taught me how to amend the crazy timing of blogspot! WOW!!!! Ok, and so I'm an IT idiot and so what? My dear friend here has shown me that there's HOPE for everyone. Cos if SHE can do it, I can do it too! Hee... After all, we both graduated from NTU Accountancy right... How different in our intellect can we get? According to you... If you can figure out HTML, so can I! Hahaa... I will cling on to your word and start on my hideous journey once I have the time (which is erhm... in the unforseeable future).

So till then, please enjoy my nice postings and just ignore the ugly layout of the rest of the things... After all, if a great read is packaged under an ugly book cover, I'm sure all you people out that whose intellect is as high as mine would definitely not judge a book by its cover right? So don't Judge my Post by it's ugly Skin! *tada*

Deja Vu

I just had a Deja Vu moment!

These brown tables and the unusual steps in my office have strangely appeared in my dream or somewhere before! Amazing what an error message from my computer can prompt me to think of...

Singapore River

Oh how I love this place... the little boats that move up and down ferrying tourists so that they can enjoy the beautiful scenery in the heart of the business district in Singapore; the many trees providing shelter from the occasional afternoon sun; the gentle breeze that blows through my hair; the calm water surface that stirs every time the boats move through or water drips in from the branch tips of the trees.... Ahh... what serenity....

And this is my "Secret Place"... Oh how I thank God for bringing me to this place. Instead of walking round and round some shopping place or continue to work while fasting, God is soooo good to bring me here. My one place that I just love so much cos I literally experience heaven on earth as I stand by the river sides to pray. Seeing the waters stirring occasionally, or how the water moves as droplets fall in, I literally "see" what I'm praying for.

God stir the hearts of my members during this Arise and Build that they will give their best to You. God stir up their hearts to beat with compassion once again to reach out to the lost. God enlarge our tents like how the circle of water enlarges as droplets fall onto the river surface. God enlarge our capacity to contain the new friends that come in so that they will be integrated into our CG. God cause our CG to grow and expand so that we will be the ones contributing to the growth when our church hits 30,000!

How fast time flies when you're having a good time with God. Oh how I love this place... Maybe I'll prayer walk Singapore River sometime in the future, and pray that Christians working all over this area will really rise up and be the salt and light in the marketplace that God has placed us in...

My heart is so full and overwhelmed now... How I wish my lunch time won't end so that I could just continue to dwell in my Secret Place...

On a separate note, WYZ leaders will be having a BBQ cum leaders meeting tonight. So excited for it!!! Just in time after my fast also? Heee.... Soooo happy that we can spend time to fellowship with Pst and with one another. Thanks Pst!!! In the eyes of all the leaders in WYZ, you're THE BEST!!! =)

First lunch with my bosses...

Just came back from lunch with my 2 bosses - Assistant Manager and my big boss the FC... Was supposed to be my welcome lunch after I've been working here for slightly more than 1 month.

Initially I was seriously rather "scared" man... Wondering what kind of topics of conversation are we going to be talking about, how should I respond and the mannerism of my eating? Hee... But it turned out to be quite enjoyable! =) Except for the fact that it was such an expensive lunch!!... There was discount for OCBC Titanium card which I have and my boss didn't, so I was so tempted to offer to pay 1st but I do not think my boss will allow hence I just kept quiet... =)

We went to this place called "Tao Yuan" which is on the 33rd floor of OCBC Building. Looks really exclusive (except for the lift) and they have this place called "The Executives Club" on the same floor. The food is not bad and the portions are quite ok for 3 persons (I think the portion should increase if there are more people?). Hmm... let me see, we ate Stir fried broccoli, Wasabi prawns, Egg white and scallop soup, Sea Parch Fish (which to me looks and taste exactly like Codfish) and Almond Cream with Beancurd. I'm seriously so full! *burp*

And I made a startling discovery that my big boss is also a Christian! Hmm... Not that she doesn't look like one, which come to think of it perhaps she does... In fact she'll always come to inform me of what she read in the papers about CHC being audited and their subsequent articles which somehow or rather I happen to miss... *ok I confess, I dun really read papers now which is so unforgivable* :/

So lunch was not too bad... and later i will try to upload a photo of the wet tissue from the restaurant as proof that I did go there... haha... nah... I took it back so that I can use it to clean my office table! This I remember I learnt it from ST! hee...

Think later tonight then I'll talk abt the great service we had yesterday and the funny incident I had when I was with my mbrs. Till then... =)

Sourcing for ~H~E~L~P~

Sigh... I simply cannot stand what I see from my blog... WHY is it like that???

The timing is wrong and I cannot find a way to change it. Seems so weird that I'm blogging about the night and yet the timing shows early morning...

Or how about the fact that no matter how many times i click "Enter", I just cannot seem to separate the lines for my various paragraphs? Why can't they just follow the simple setup of applications like Word? =(

Daydreaming after lunch

Just came back from a REALLY full lunch. Kinda sleepy once again... *yawn*

Looking at my previous post, I just cannot help but wonder why is the timing of the post wrong? I specifically remember typing it late last night at like 12plus am yet it states that I posted it at 8plus am... =(

AND I just do not seem to be able to insert lines into my various paragraphs. WHY???? Would a kind soul somewhere out there advise me on how to do it?

My boss and my neighbours are not around again... But today's the last day of such. I better enjoy myself before they come back and I fall straight back into reality with the additional "gift" of month-end coming ahead...

Cheers to those who can take afternoon naps! Hee... =)

Maiden Attempt

I almost cannot believe my eyes while I'm typing this... Since when am I so brave to voice my thoughts in such a PUBLIC arena?? Thanks to the "coercion" of various dear ones whose names coincidentally mainly start with "C". Hee... ;P

But there's always a 1st time for everything I guess. Aiming to make trying new things a norm for my life from now onwards, so that I do not miss out the wonderful things that life has in store for us all.

And so after my faint attempt at blogging my 1st post, I shall adjourn to something more meaningful to me -- zzzzz.........

Nuff said. =)